Here Comes the Sun

By Marissa Barnes

As we enter into the warm summer months, I wanted to introduce myself as PHA’s summer intern in the Patient and Caregiver Services branch. The summer time is my first and foremost favorite time of the year, not just because I break from school, but because every day I feel rejuvenated by the warm air and happier with the sun shining.  A few years ago I read this quote and since has been my life motto, to

“Always bring your own sunshine.”

 I know for some, being in the sun can cause irritation and the time spent under the sun’s rays for others their summer might not even be all that sunny, for me, living in D.C. we have thunderstorms lined up every day of the week. Regardless of the weather, I try to find a little bit of sunshine in everything I do. I had made a post on the Facebook group asking what some of your summer plans are to be this summer, whether you are vacationing, spending time with friends, involving yourself in certain camps or groups, etc.

 Kevin Mayhood – Paskawych shares his summer plans saying, “I have a slogan and its ‘if I can do it, you can do it’ and I keep trying to push myself to attempt new things, despite this. I am 32, I was diagnosed in 2012, and I have IPAH currently, although there is a thought that we may have an idea as to a potential associative disease. I am spending my summer in my hometown of Marietta, Ohio, but it doesn't mean I am not excited. When I was going through my diagnostic process, I needed something to keep my mind off of everything, so I jumped into an idea a friend, and fellow theatre professional, had about starting a professional summer theatre company in Marietta. So, we formed a group, and over the last two years built up what we needed to pull it off”. (Mayhood-Paskawych).

Kia Thompson-Allen who is 39 and was diagnosed with PAH in 2007, tells us this summer she will be, “keeping my 8 year old busy, taking him to St. Louis to six flags and the zoo there”. Kia recommends staying in the water parks to stay cool, plus drinking icy beverages and finding shade when you can.  Kia explains, “you know it's hard on us PH'ers in the heat, plus my son being a severe asthmatic heat isn't good, so most activities we plan are indoors: library, Chuck E. Cheese, and an indoor trampoline facility; all those places are air conditioned :) and ways to  have fun and stay cool for us”!

Kristine and family at Detroit Zoo

Kristine Green is 35 and was diagnosed with idiopathic pulmonary arterial hypertension in July 2011.  She says, “This summer, I am ALL about family time! I am blessed to stay home with my four year old son. So far, we have gone to Movies Under the Stars- where you watch a movie outside up on the mountain to support our local firefighters, library reading programs, both of the "splash pads" in our town and played a lot in our yard. I am most excited to go camping on the Umcompagre Platuea and for a rafting trip on the Colorado River. Too cool off, we load up our three pups and head to the river or swimming pool (minus the dogs)! We like to make our own Popsicles or freeze fruit to munch on to stay cool too. My son and I are supposed to visit family/friends in Michigan (where I am from) for 17 days- visiting numerous cities while there. However, I am not sure about going right now since I am experiencing troublesome side effects from meds. If we do go, we'll go to Lake Michigan, the Detroit Zoo, festivals and maybe a Tiger's game! I will need a vacation from vacation after that! I like a lot about summer, but harvesting fresh fruits and veggies from our garden, camping and spending time with friends are probably my favorites”.

We love hearing from all of you and your plans for this season. Sometimes the heat can be intimidating to get outside and have fun, but there are many ways to stay cool and still enjoy yourself. I hope you all can find a little bit of sunshine in each part of your day

I Am What I Am Because of PH

By Kiara Tatum

The Latin proverb says, “Sickness shows us what we are.”  Like the proverb, pulmonary hypertension has taught me exactly who and what I am.  My life drastically changed since the onset of PH symptoms 7 years ago.  I graduated from college and started my career, and then my losses began: financial stability, friends, my home, my car, control and independence.  However, my diagnosis of PH has many positive outcomes as well as negative.

I’ve been on this rollercoaster ride of loops and upward and downward slopes.  Before my diagnosis, I thought I knew what and who I was: a licensed social worker, a daughter, a sister, an aunt and a friend.  I exercised regularly with a trainer and ate healthy food.  My plan in life was to open a private practice and focus on psychotherapy for adolescents with emotional and learning disabilities.  After my diagnosis, I had to overcome many challenges and obstacles.  I slept on a futon in my mother’s living room.  We moved to a bigger apartment, but then I shared a bedroom with my little sister and later-on, with my sister and nephew.  My income went from a good salary to less than half that, and then I had no income for months.  But I still had to pay medical bills, an electric bill, car insurance and other bills.  I was depressed, angry and felt like I was nothing.  What I didn’t expect was that this PH journey would be good for me.  

I learned what I am from PH,  I am strong;  I have the strength I need to get up every day and take medication, to deal with the not so good PH days, and to be okay with having PH.  The strength I gained from rebuilding my life, a different life.  No more sleeping on a futon or sharing a bedroom; because I moved to my own apartment and I sleep in my own room.  I receive Social Security Disability Insurance with Medicare and supplemental health insurance.  I also teach as an adjunct instructor at my local community college.  I may not be able to climb Mt. Everest, but I have enough strength to hike to Stone Church in Dover, New York.  This strength I have allows me to overcome any obstacle such as heart failure that PH puts in my path.

Kiara with mom, niece, and nephews

My faith deepened.  I learned to rely more on God for my strength and guidance.  His strength and power gives me strength and provides hope when I’m weak, tired, depressed and angry.  My priorities in life have changed from self-focused to other-focused.  I share my free time in service for others such as volunteering in my community, being a support group leader for PH patients, etc.  I also realized that I have more support than I thought, and I formed stronger bonds with family and friends.  My mom, sisters, nieces and nephews have been there for me through the hospital visits, doctor’s appointments, but also through the fun days of family outings.   My nephews and nieces carry those heavy oxygen tanks for me, attend my PH support group meetings, and we spend quality time together.  Staying in contact with close friends is important to me no matter how far away those friends live; Facebook and texting help.  I created new friendships, “phriendships.”  I met and talk to people with PH from all over the world, through PHA conferences, support group meetings, Facebook and even focus groups.  My “phriends” and I go through similar experiences, so we empathize with one another and don’t have to explain PH. 

A chronic illness changed my life, negatively and positively.  What about you?  What are some positive changes PH has brought to your life? Comment below.

Let's Get Together!

By Kiara Tatum

LtoR Mike MacDonough, Melanie Kozak, Jhenna Pacelli , Jason Kozak, Tara Suplicki, Kiara Tatum, Joshua Griffis, Collen Brunetti, Kevin Roberson, Braden Buehler, Kirsten Larson, Alex Castro Flipse & Picture taken by Debbie Castro (PHA/Director of Volunteer Services)

Planning for the first Generation Hope meet up started in the winter with the idea from Melanie Kozak and Colleen Brunetti.  They wanted all those who could get to NYC to come out and to have Generation Hope get together.  I suggested doing it during the warmer months because I know how difficult winter can be for me despite this winter being as a warm as it was.  I was really excited to meet some of the people that I known from Facebook.  Three days before the meet up, I had an emergency and was sent to the hospital by ambulance.  I really didn’t want to miss out on this gathering, so I prayed and hoped that I wouldn’t be admitted, and I wasn’t admitted.  I left the hospital later that evening with a prescription and instructions to rest for a few days.  However, I had to prepare for the meet up on Saturday.  I had to get my hair styled, so I did.  The medical emergency took a lot of energy away from me, but by Saturday morning I was ready to take the train to NYC to meet my phriends.  I looked forward to the meet up for months, and the lack of energy and an emergency hospital visit wasn’t going to keep me away from going to this. 

Kiara, Debbie, Tara, Kevin, Melanie

Weather was beautiful and I was anxious, but happy to be meeting up with phriends my age.  My support group members are older than me, and some of the patients have children my age.  So this meeting was important to find phriends that shared common interest with me and not just PH. First I met up with my NYC “tour guide,” Kevin, and he brought me to Ellen’s Stardust Dinner – Colleen’s choice in restaurant – near Time Square.  After two buses and a couple blocks of walking, we arrived. I was there amongst friends that I talked to on Facebook or email, but today we were in person.  So surreal!  We greeted each other with hugs and laughs as we waited to be seated at the diner.  Did you know that Generation Hopers are very talkative?  Well at least that day we all could be together and have a great time at the diner.  Enjoy the good food and company – great pick Colleen!  The wait staff sung songs from the musical "Rent" (Joshua Griffis's favorite musical) and "Mamma Mia", performed a Whitney Houston and a Michael Jackson number, and even did a great job rapping to Nicki Minaj’s "Super Bass".

Alex and Kiara

After brief discussion of what to do after we ate, we then headed to Time Square.  There were vendors in the streets, and we all shopped and looked around.   We had such an interesting time getting to know each other out in Time Square. Some of us – Alex Castro and myself – stopped and brought some jewelry.  And I’m not sure how many cups of coffee Debbie Castro had, but that girl loves some Starbucks coffee, and there are plenty of them in NYC.  While the man prayed for over me, Alex had my back just in case he decided to go pick pocketing or something.  And thank you to Melanie for coming to my rescue when the woman in the yellow t-shirt, who was mediating with other yellow t-shirt people, said to me that I could be healthy if I mediated.  Melanie gave a quick PH lesson – with a Jersey attitude – to the woman.  Using oxygen always seems to attract people of all kinds.  It’s hard to get used to the stares, but it felt great to have my new phriends around to support me.  It was getting late, and I know I had to get back to the train because I was running low on oxygen.  So I took the taxi with Jhenna and her husband, Mike to Grand Central Terminal.  We sat down and hung out at Grand Central before our trains arrived.  It felt so good riding home on that train.  Joshua posted on Facebook that the remaining phriends saw the musical Rent that night, one of my favorite musicals.  I wish I could have seen it with them, but you know that your life is controlled by your oxygen supply.

Kiara with Elmo

I really needed that day.  Being with other PH patients that are going through similar situations and your age was just perfect.   We may talk on Facebook, but it’s not real until you see each other.  It’s like you know you’re truly not alone.  That day brought more light to the darkness of having PH, it empowered me and I gained a little more hope, and now I’m more armed against my PH fight.  We already agreed to have another meet up possibly in October.  And maybe more Generation Hope meet ups will start popping up all over the world.